Adjustments

Well, I've now had the blessing of being able to work at home for about a full month, minus the week we spent in Arizona. I'm still loving it! A few random impressions:

• I sometimes feel guilty for being here, like I'm playing hooky from something! Not that I languish my days away on trifles--I'm working hard--but it doesn't "feel" like work to me because I don't hate it. Aren't I supposed to hate work? Isn't that what work is?
• My days are not as long as I thought they would be. I still rush to get everything accomplished. Since I have made up my schedule and have attempted to stick to it, I am in constant wonderment as to where my hours go!
• I fear that everyone I try to explain my life to must think that all I do is watch soap operas and eat potato chips all day. Actually, I NEVER watch soap operas and try to eat potato chips only in social settings. I don't know if anyone really thinks this, but I'm afraid they do. I analyze people's facial expressions as I try to explain what I'm doing with my life. From the bewildered looks I get, I wonder if some people understand that genuine work can be accomplished outside of a little 10x10 foot box. Still, I'll feel more justified in my choices if I can answer "Yes!" someday to the inquiry of "can you actually make money from that?"
• Why is work only considered valuable if it brings money? I don't like money. I wish there was no such thing. If only I could survive without it!:op
• I miss my puppy. I long for a little companion during the day...even one that doesn't talk.
• I don't miss being surrounded by people all day. I like having some space. But sometimes I think it would be nice if there was still such a thing as the town well or market where women used to gather and chat about their lives as they set about their work together. Hmm...maybe the blogosphere has sort of become a "cyber town well" for me to some extent!
• Though my days are short, my evenings seem longer. Enjoyable...yes! I love spending time with Micah! But what are we supposed to do with our evenings now that we don't have to make dinner late and try to clean the house and do all the other things that I couldn't do during the day before? We eat dinner. We walk. We read. And there's still time!
• I don't know if I could EVER go back to the corporate/9-5 world. I believe God must have created us to want to work from home where our spirits feel content and our loved ones reside.